7 Days Pre-Op

Neil made me this little board with flip numbers so I can
 watch my weight go down.  Its awesome!!!

At this time, one week from now my new life will begin!!!!  Wow I am getting so incredibly excited about all of the possibilitys that lay before me.  I cannot wait to discover all of the living I HAVENT been doing and didnt even realize it.  I am a very active girl, even at my current weight it is almost impossible to keep me sitting still.  I can only imagine the energy I will have after the surgery and the weight loss.  I have had several friends "check in" over the last couple days just telling me that they are thinking about me and that means sooooo much to me.  I have an amazing support group joining me on this journey and I do recognize how fortunate I truly am. A special call-out and thank you to Amy Collins who had the surgery about 2 years ago and looks and feels incredible.  She said she never realized what kind of a "fog" she was living in until she wasnt.  Amy has lost over 200 pounds on her journey and I am so proud of her, she has truly been an inspiration to me and I am especially fortunate to have her by my side.  She has been a great source of information, tips and tricks for me.  Not to mention quite the motivator. 

On the flip side of this lovely coin, I have also been a beautiful disaster the last few days.   My head is going in a million different directions filled with worries and concerns.  Not about anything major but just the simple things in life like what can i do to make my time away super easy for my brother.  For those of you that are not aware, I have custody of my brother who is 47 years old and mentally handicapped.  There are several things in life, he just doesnt grasp ahold of.  His mind function is equal to a 12 year old....which happens to be one of the things I love about him so much!!!  So anyways, I worry about him like a mom worries about their baby.  I finally told him about the surgery because I had to prepare him for the fact that I wont be going to Nascar with him on Fathers Day.  He seems ok with the fact that he is going to be going with "the boys" but he really wanted his sister there, maybe next year buddy...maybe next year.  I am already stressing about being left alone 2 days after surgery because the boys will all be at Nascar.  I will likely still be in the hospital during that time and one of my besties has offered to stay with me but I hate to keep her away from her dad on fathers day....see I worry to much. 


I also found out that my gall bladder is full of stones....so I will find out for sure today but it is likely that I will have my gall bladder removed at the same time of the surgery.  I told Neil last night that it feels like they are going to be de-gutting me....lol  Today is my final appointment before surgery.  I have also decided to take the next week off of work to allow me time to prepare for this life change.  There are a few things I am doing this week for fun like going to the Ford Museum, visiting Meijer Gardens and also visiting a special place with a dock and alot of water.  I go to this special place to clear my mind and some of my best thinking has been done on that dock along with some of my worst decisions.  I guess its a love hate relationship I have with the dock but its my special place!!  I would also like to see my brother-in-law (ex) and his family before the surgery as well.  We are trying to make that work but we will see.  I will know more after today.